So today is Mother's Day. Every time on this day I get a little sad, but I think it's completely normal in my situation. But I also get a lot of joy...thinking about Jana and how she is such a great mother to Jacob and of how much happiness that they have, that it fills my heart with joy and happiness, and it overcomes the sadness! (:
Every year on Mother's Day a lot of thoughts come to mind....happy ones, sad ones, all kinds of emotions. And every year Jana, Rob and Jacob send me gifts for this special day of their love and it makes me so happy that I catch myself in tears of happiness because they are so sweet and to this day I think of how lucky I am to have them all in my life.
Sometimes as birth mothers we tend to think too much and sometimes it feels depressing and we become sad. A day like this can be emotional because it's a reminder of our birth child and all the "what if's" and ways it could of been... Of how our birth child could be with us. And yes I think of those things but I'm sure I'm not the only one! But what lifts me up is the little details Jana does and I can't help but love her even more... The pictures, gifts, videos, texts, emails, etc etc. She is so loving and caring. She is an AMAZING mother. We have a special bond and I'm so glad we do! I'm sure I made the right choice. It was extremely hard and still is hard... but Jana makes it easy to deal with because she is so thoughtful!
I'm so happy she is able to be a mother, not only does she have that opportunity now but I was able to help her be one and she has become a great one...and that brings joy to me on this day because it's her day too. Jacob is so loved. I love him very much... I'm so thankful for Open Adoption and for Jana and Rob. They are great.
Jana, on this day I want to wish you a Happy Mother's Day and I want to remind ya'll that ya'll have a very very very special place in my heart... My love for all of you will keep growing! We love ya'll...